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Please note that this entry was written during the hiatus! I apologize in beforehand for any offended/hurt feelings! In the heat of the moment, I let my anger take over...
Well hello there!

I decided to make this hiatus short and start blogging on English again. I still have the other blog on hiatus. It has been good for business, I tell you, because the ratings has gone to the roof! Funnily enough, the majority of the readers has found my [Swedish] blog through searching "my full name" + blog on Google. How original right? *prft*

Also... The Stockholm trip I was telling you about before the hiatus. Well that didn´t go well at all. Mam totally shut me down, "You have to live all year on the money you´ve saved up from working this Summer and you´ve been to Ireland already!" and I tried to argue back but she didn´t back down. So that was a no go. Honest to God, then next time I won´t tell her until I´m on the boat! And so what if I´ve been on a trip this Summer already, there are people who are rushing all over the place all the time. So unfair! 
I didn´t even ask for her permission to go, I simply told her - at several occasions - that I was thinking about going to Stockholm.

So today then, my "precious" baby brother told me that he was going to Sweden tomorrow. That totally pissed me off! He´s allowed to go but I´m not?! I bet he hasn´t paid for the trip either, mam is probably "sponsoring" him - I would not be surpised. So that, like I mentioned earlier, totally pissed me off. Like you have no idea. I had to get out of the house so I went down to the ice cream stand to check the freezers, as the electricity was gone for a moment earlier today. That was my excuse. I then tried telling mom that the ice cream stand would be closed today, but nope! I cannot get a break with those people!

Later I learned that the fucker was only messing with my head, but still. It pissed me off!

That realization also caused a huge mental breakdown and I gave mam some serious silent treatment when I came down here before opening. She won´t get a word out of me for a long time. She has herself to blame. She can be such a bitch sometimes!

Speaking of mental breakdowns... I had a huge one last week at the Summer house. We went there to paint something and afterwards mam told me I could cut the grass because [quoating] You haven´t done anything today. That totally pissed me off, because only minutes later, I´d stood painting a fucking pole, listening her complain about how horrible it was standing on the fucking ladder, so I stormed off to the outdoor-toilet and totally broke down. I was a mess. Like... Well, me at the end at Savoy Cinema in Dubs. Not as heart-broken, more hysterical, more despair... So close enough.
I tell you, it was brutal. I´m suspecting it had to do with something else as well than mam´s comment, but anyways... Like I said, she cane be such a bitch, not thinking about how hurtful her little comments can be!

So you see, I´m not having a easy life at the moment. To top my fragile mental state, Angie won´t be coming here this month. I suspected it though, because I hadn´t heard from her in a while before she told me she couldn´t come (used to be the same with Susanna, I asked her if she wanted to accompony me to an event or whatever, and it always took a week before I got a cold sms that said I will not be coming to... - with time, I didn´t bother to ask and went on my own)
So, Angie not coming here was a disappointment. So as always, I will be the one coming to her. How fair, right? Don´t get me wrong, I love going to Sweden and we always have so much fun, but.... Ah well.

Anyways, I´ll hopefully be on my way to Sweden in October or December and it´s going to be kickass awesome. I won´t tell mam, won´t ask for her permission  - because I´m fucking 25 and I don´t have to beg for my mother´s permission. 

Slán!