2011

Heya darlings!

So, a new year is upon us =)

Did you have a good New Year´s?

Mine was calm. I stayed home - alone. Well, I had the cats with me, but you get the picture.

This was the first New Year´s Eve since 2005/06 I spent at home. Back then, I had had a argument with S... Some of you may have heard about this but... 

Someone very important - musically speaking - to me were coming to Helsinki in January 2006 and when I asked my mam if I could go, she said "Ask S" - back then she said that instead of a simple no. So, stupid as I was, I asked S if she would come with me and... 

Of course she said no. And I got really, really pissed - you wouldn´t believe... I totally lashed out on her.

But honestly, I had a good reason to.

It´s years ago, but I still can´t believe I lost the one & only chance to see these extremely important persons... But S (or my mam for that part) couldn´t understand how badly I wanted to go - they don´t have that particular band they´ve been following for several years, they haven´t met amazing people through that band, that band hasn´t helped them through some of life´s most horrible moments. 

They couldn´t possible understand how hearbroken I was when I wasn´t able to go.

I could´ve simply stood up to mam and gone anyways, but back then I relied on her acceptance.

It also backfired on me. Bigtime.

Anyways. What done is done. 

That whole experience made me understand I shouldn´t rely on anyone anymore when it comes to events like this. Nowadays I simply tell mam I´m going here or there, she and he are coming with me etc etc. I´m not asking for permission, but I´m letting her know what´s happening.

Right now I´m watching a movie, Love Happens. Mam´s Christmas present.

Starring Aaron Eckhart and Jennifer Aniston.

It´s quite good, to be honest.

My brother is going back to the Army tonight. He´s coming back home on Friday and that will be it. No more Army for him. 

Talk to you soon.